Why is it that I'm the most creative right before I fall asleep?
Maybe it's because I'm free of distractions -- no basketball games in the background, no ABC Bachelor drama to captivate me, no husband yammering in my ear (unless you count, at that moment in time, his snoring.)
Yes, I lay awake and stare at the ceiling and the internal monologue/ narrative of my ms just flows through my thoughts as if it had been there all day, waiting for my undivided attention. I'll think of a phrase so beautiful, long to get out of bed to write it down, but stay where I am -- because if I get up I'll start writing and I'll never get any sleep. My husband will wake up and find me hovering over the laptop (or sitting on the floor of the bathroom with notebook paper) and gauntlet's will be thrown about what lack of sleep does for my overallsanity well being.
Yes, I stay where I am, warm and full of words. I'll keep repeating things I particularly like -- sentences, phrases, metaphors, similies, symbols, scenes.
Don't forget that.
Don't forget that.
And in the morning it's gone -- or worse, half there and as cloudy as a leftover dream.
And I can never get it back.
And it makes me sad.
Maybe it's because I'm free of distractions -- no basketball games in the background, no ABC Bachelor drama to captivate me, no husband yammering in my ear (unless you count, at that moment in time, his snoring.)
Yes, I lay awake and stare at the ceiling and the internal monologue/ narrative of my ms just flows through my thoughts as if it had been there all day, waiting for my undivided attention. I'll think of a phrase so beautiful, long to get out of bed to write it down, but stay where I am -- because if I get up I'll start writing and I'll never get any sleep. My husband will wake up and find me hovering over the laptop (or sitting on the floor of the bathroom with notebook paper) and gauntlet's will be thrown about what lack of sleep does for my overall
Yes, I stay where I am, warm and full of words. I'll keep repeating things I particularly like -- sentences, phrases, metaphors, similies, symbols, scenes.
Don't forget that.
Don't forget that.
And in the morning it's gone -- or worse, half there and as cloudy as a leftover dream.
And I can never get it back.
And it makes me sad.
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Then (like INDefatigable above) I started putting a pad of paper and a pen on the nightstand. If I get an idea I reach over and write it. Its usally slanted across the whole page, but they're often really good and worth remembering.
@Megan Rebekah - Yeah, I've tried that before and gotten the same slanted results. I guess it's better than nothing at all though.
@ jayme: thank you for the award. I am speechlesssssspice.
@ Travener: I was going to tell you that, oh, um... I forgot.
@ Just Another Sarah: You and I need penlights! Someone have a giveaway. Any takers?
@ Carissa: Yeah, it's one thing to lay there and write internally. It's another thing all together to reach for the pen and write and it down. :) Let's get little tape recorders and do audio first drafts!!
@ Melissa: Okay, I'm putting the pen and paper by the bed tonight. We shall see!
I love this....warm and full of words.
The voice recorder worked superbly. Until I got lazy enough to not want to talk in the middle of the night.
I can't even count how many ideas I've lost in the last month. It's most maddening, I think, to know there WAS an idea, and to simply not be able to recall it no matter how hard I try.
Guess I need to get un-lazy...or risk going crazy. :)