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i need a nap. and a map.

I haven't done jackspice since I found out I have a bun in the oven.

I mean, I haven't even opened the document where my WIP lives -- not since last Wednesday, which I now refer to as the-last-day-I-lived-in-innocent-bliss.

I'm so preoccupied -- already. Is this normal?

I can't stop: thinking about baby names, touching my belly, weighing myself, staring at my belly, contemplating the absurd amount of housework there is to do before a living infant can move in here, reading about foods to eat, reading about foods not to eat, generally bitching due to a (not complete) lack of nicotine and caffeine, telling random people I'm pregnant, worrying about money, worrying about having a miscarriage, worrying about the baby not being healthy and wondering if I will crumble and feel like it is my fault if the baby isn't healthy, freaking out about the thought of giving birth, feeling anxious every time I cough, like something inside me might become detached.

Etc.

Again. Is this normal?

Why don't I feel like writing my story?

Why do I feel like clicking delete and starting over, as if I know more now than I did less than a week ago?
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Shain Brown said…
You know, Janet Evanovich allows her readers to name her new books. Maybe, well just maybe you might consider a "Name the Bun" contest. Though it would be just for fun.
April 20, 2010 at 1:55 PM
Jenna Wallace said…
Yep, totally normal. And you can blame it on hormones. I lived through nine months of "pregnancy brain" which made me do strange things like take up quilting (to be all domestic-like) and once caused me to buy 7 pounds of bananas. You'll have good days and bad days. In the meantime, embrace it as part of the weird and wacky journey that is pregnancy.
April 20, 2010 at 2:10 PM
Yvonne Osborne said…
Of course it's normal! I had my babies before I started seriously writing so I don't know what would have happened to any WIP if I'd but the writing before the stork. Probably would've slipped to the back burner a bit.
April 20, 2010 at 2:50 PM
Talli Roland said…
Oh, great idea Shain! Name the bun. I love it.

Of course you're distracted, etc. You have something growing in side of you! Go with it and enjoy!
April 20, 2010 at 3:06 PM
Ashley Stone said…
I've never been pregnant but I'd think it is totally normal!! It's life changing!
April 20, 2010 at 3:41 PM
EmcogNEATO! said…
I'm sorry, but HOLYSHITSPICE! Bun in the oven? I've been too busy writing a primer on fake-passing employer drug tests that I haven't been reading my favorite bloggers nearly enough.

Congrats!
April 20, 2010 at 4:16 PM
Charity Bradford said…
No! Don't click delete and start all over. And don't decide on a new hair style while pregnant either. Trust me, you will regret it later. Pregnancy hormones do weird things to your brain.

:) Happy for you, glad to not be doing that again.
April 20, 2010 at 4:39 PM
Leigh Hutchens Burch said…
@ Shain -- Ohh, I like the contest idea! I can't wait to share some of my favorites with everyone and to get some ideas!

@ Jenna - SEVEN pounds of bananas? Did you have a craving?

@ Yvonne - Well, I'm glad to know it seems normal! I was thinking, when I first found out, about how I could get all this writing done when I go on maternity leave. Somehow, I don't envision that being a very productive time for me now, either!

@ Talli - Thanks. I am enjoying this odd feeling... it's kind of strange and wonderful all at once.

@ Ashley - Are you two thinking about kids? Hmm... I would like my little one to have a playdate, so why don't you get busy?! LOL. Wait and see about your role on GLEE first. One preggo character is probably enough on that show.

@ Emcogneato - Ha! You HAVE missed a little news over here. :)

@ Charity - Thanks for the encouragement. I won't be deleting. Or cutting off my hair anytime soon. When it's August and I'm several months along -- now, that may be another story. ;)






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April 20, 2010 at 5:53 PM
Unknown said…
What you need is a good book, a bath and candles, it's time to relax and worry about yourself. Take a few minutes to only think about you... that little bun in the oven has awhile to go.

YOU'RE Stressed no wonder you can't work on your wip, love, you have a ton going on!!!
April 20, 2010 at 8:40 PM
Amy Stein said…
Totally normal... in time you will be able to think about things other than your child... but it might be like 2 years from now! They should list insanity as a symptom of pregnancy in those what to expect books. Congratulations by the way, you'll be a great mom!
April 21, 2010 at 12:07 AM
larainydays said…
The minute you find out you are pregnant, you start reinventing your whole future. Nothing is ever the same.

Thanks for your insights on my YA novel yesterday. I really appreciate your help.
April 21, 2010 at 10:39 AM
rachaelgking said…
Jackspice?

I love you.
April 21, 2010 at 4:44 PM
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